Love is all you need

Movedddd

2009-08-28T05:01:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone!!

I'm finally shifting to LJ! (As of now)

Okay, ciao!! :)

http://speaklovee.livejournal.com

Cold spell

2009-08-27T08:41:00.000-07:00

Sighhhh results disappointing like fuck!
Nvm, treat this as a wake up call and do better for eoy!!
I'm so damn troubled lately because of some matters which really dampens my mood, and my results add to all my problems.
Can't disappoint mommy anymore shall make her happy with my eoy resultsssss ohhh yeahhh.
This post is so junky.

sigh!!
bye everyone! :)

Tag replies :
Qianjing : HAHAHAH CUTE LEH "qianle" :) I miss lele!!! And her vege song, and I miss you! Very long never see you liao + bamboo dog WIN!! and glad you like the egg camera!! <3
Dee : hi deee! haha that was damn funny!!!
Xiuyun : HI XY!!! (L)
Olivia : Thanks choo!

25 August

2009-08-25T07:25:00.001-07:00

Hi guys! Today was alright, I had fun, and Chem was productive!! Cos I managaed to study abit of Geog :)

Anyway, I'm kinda lazy to blog right now, rest of thre post is dedicated to Eng QQ!! :)

My love for you (L) Hope you like it !! + The oreo cupcakes!!

"Qianle" LOL

Your favourite pic

Hk Trip!! GOOD TIMES OMG

OKay, sorry, I don't have as many pics of you cos mostly is all Cindy LOL.

Anyway, happy 15th Qianjing!

Whatever I wanted to say has already been written on the card!

+ Humansaurous LOves you LOL

I love you alot, and hope you enjoyed yourself today during the surprisingly enjoyable choir practice, and your present from all of us!

Seeyou tomorrow, and thanks always being there for me, through good times and bad.. for richer or poor.. in sickness and in health ;)

Love you Calm and Composed (Cough) Friend! :)

LOL!!!!

P.S : Happy birthday Kaixin and Rachel Goh too! :)

Ignorance is your new best friend

2009-08-23T01:09:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone, I'm shifting over to Livejournal soon (until I get bored), and the URL's http://speaklovee.livejournal.com

Haha okay, Common tests are over and I pretty much regret not spending more time studying. Theres POA and Geog left, and I know I'm going to fail POA cos I forgot how to do double entry. So I'm counting on geog!!!!!!!!!! Did not study much geog today so I shall start tomorrow.

Okay, I don't have much to blog about cos my life's kinda boring. Except that on Friday I had a hell of a time with the clique. Pictures are up on FB, and I'll be posting them in Lj, cos right now I'm damn lazy. (I'm not gna move till Friday, I think.)

I'm still sick. -.-

Okay, have a nice day tomorrow and hope your monday blues go away!

xx

Tag replies :

Zul : Hehe I lend you!!!!!!!! But I got to wait till octish leh, so sian!! ):
What : Haha, its Brand New Eyes, the title of Paramore's new album that's gna be released late Sept. The Deluxe Edition is with more stuff, thats all! :)
Joan : HAHAHAH. Yes omg yes I agree!! Chem is disgusting.
QQ : HAHAHA IKR LIKE THE MEMORIES!
Olivia : OKAY choo!!
Xiuyun : Hi Xiuyun!! Haha I wasn't feeling well!
iiiii : Hi! Haha, flashlightbatteriess.blogspot.com :)
Sheryl : Tried, but I still can't seem to.. Haha! Yes but I'll still be stress after that ):

All you need is love

2009-08-20T06:35:00.000-07:00

Hi, I FINALLY PREORDERED BRAND NEW EYES DELUXE EDITION I AM HAPPY LIKE SERiOUSLY HAPPY OKAY!! but I got to wait till Octoberish till it comes. ):

Okay, I think I screwed Maths and Chem on Wednesday, and Chinese today, because I don't understand the passage :/

Okay tomorrow's the last 2 papers, Bio and History and yes its all entirely memory work which is making my brain feel so @#$%^& okay!! omg.

Tag replies :
Jo : Sorry baobei ): BUt my phone cmi already leh!

Jocelyn : Hi pumpkin! ;)

Joan : Then don't kiss your boyfriend too much! :P

Mirror : Haha chill, just add me as a friend on my new lj then :) haha idk, my mom got it for me!

QQ : HAHA CHILL omg but you moving to tumblr leh!! ):

Hey : haha yup I will :)

Christine : yes omg!! rocks

Passerby 2 : thank you anony :)

dee : its okay dee! haha you wont ever fail english! study hard too dee :) I'm not smart! I think my dreams are kinda crushed ):

loll : can't be fucked hahah shit i feel so vulgar!

We'll have Halloween on Christmas

2009-08-18T07:36:00.000-07:00

HI everyone,

Today was horrible (cos got chem), and everyday's horrible when I see Rajah, I'm sorry.
She was being like a ___ (UYOW) today and I think she pissed many people off, I think we shd lock her in a room and off the lights and ____ (UYOW).

I finally heard Luo Zhi Xiang's Wo Bu Hui Chang Ge, and I heard the laugh!! OMG very scary!
Okay I'm having a splitting headache now and I'm so tired.
I'm worried about SS right now, becos I have not studied for the mcq yet.
I'm only half-prepared for maths, and I hate chem so I cbf to study. (except solubilty table)

I think I'm going to screw up my common test sian.

Good luck everyone :)

you appear like raindrops

2009-08-16T07:26:00.000-07:00

HI everyone!

Common tests are just round the corner so we got to study like seriously study!!!!!!!
I forgot to buy panadol!
And I got a new phone today cos my current phone sucks and I can't recieve sms/send sms or even open my inbox ): LG Crystal hehehehe
I'm shifting back to lj soonly!! (not daytimedramaaa anymore) After common tests.
OK need to remember to pack my mc with me!
Have a gooood day at school tomorrow!

Tag replies :
Gab : Haha thank you gab! Happy birthday! :)
XIUYUN : NEVer see my stomach!!!
qq: HI Q I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU GUYS TOMORROW
HAHAHA! : Oops sorry! haha :/ oh, idk anything!
cheryl.t : (check your blog tb!)
Joan : HAHAH omg *paiseh* :P Haha, thanks!! Take care too!! :)
Sara : Hello!! :D
dee : HI BABY DEE, I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOUUUUU!!!

Afterall,

2009-08-14T23:40:00.001-07:00

Its only human to cry.

Tonight's gonna be a good night

2009-08-13T10:00:00.000-07:00

My fever's pretty much on and off and its so annoying..
Becus of my fever I missed Lady Gaga and Keane's ):
And Rayner was telling me that he left his Business camp to walk over to watch Lady Gaga, sigh!!
Hope I'll be fine by saturday, and I realise I'm panicking cos I don't understand 2 maths chapters and Chem. And What are we supposed to study for SS SEQ??
omg!! Totally panicking my ass off now.

Thats what you get when you do last minute revision ):
On a lighter note, I lost 1 kg!! HAHA thank you fever!!

Okay, everyone study hard!!
have a nice day tomorrow cos TGTIF!!! (especially when you're not sick!)

Tag replies :
Sheryl : haha! Im damn sua ku so I have very limited choices!! ): Haha, alot of nonsense like going out, singing, guitar and shopping!
Qianjing : HAHA THANK YOU QQ!! (L) SEEYOU SOONLY!! IMY guys! ):
Xiuyun : Thank you skinny!! (L) Haha, and thanks for telling me what I missed out in school!
Dee : Hi baby deee :) Haha, its not your fault!! Really and truly! Thanks and your cupcakes were damn good too!! Get welll soon too dee <3 Anyway your reply to Alvin made me LOL
KWJ : Thanks (L) You too ok!!
Fitri : Haha thank you Fitri!! ANd thanks again for the present and YAH DAMN LOOK LIKE LOL.
Joan : Haha! Np :)
HAHAHAHAHA! : Lol, who is this?? And whose blog is that! Omg are you a virus? :/
Olivia : THANKS CHOO. Haha YOU ATE THEM! The cinnamon cookies!!

why do I put myself in these situations

2009-08-11T03:01:00.000-07:00

1) Im having a fever
2) I found a twin, thanks to Brent, haha!
3) I wanna go school tomorrow
4) I don't want to get mc
5) Cos having a holiday at home is not fun!!!
6) Lady Gaga's a hermaphrodite
7) I feel like studying but Im having a throbbing headache
8) "Gen its you la you took that pic when you were drunk so you dont remember"
9) "its not me"
"fuck you"
10) "look like ah"
"wtf go ask your mom LOL"
11) I'm so bored right now.
12) study hard guys! :)

Love, truth and honesty

2009-08-10T02:23:00.000-07:00

Last thursday Fiona came over for sleepover :)

Friday was national day celebration, then to t1 with Cindy and Jo.

Saturday was town with Kwj for food and shopping.

Yesterday (Happy birthday Sg + Cheryl!), studying plan failed, baked snickerdoodles (after so long), and then went to dte to meet Jo for Brent's chalet.

Wj's sick now, get well soon :( <3

Today (Happy birthday Joan!), I wasted my day lazing around in bed, then going to Pp for lunch, and Macs to study. Then, I saw a guy scratching his bollocks. What a sight.

Omg my post sounds damn monotonous.
I can;t seem to study, and I cannot concentrate.
I am a wreck, and I am having a horrible headache.
Tution in awhile more, and I wanna die.
Common tests are coming already, and honestly, I am not fking prepared.
OMG.

I shall study my brains out for the next few days, because CTs are in less than a week, and I have been slacking so much.
I feel that I shouldn't be having chinese tuition right now, cos its just a waste of time seriously -.- I need to concentrate on my other subjects like Science and Math. And humans.
Times like this, I really want to burn my guitar cos its so damn distracting thanks.
This post is so grumpy-ish.

Tag replies :
QQ : HAHA YAH LOR. OMG DAMN VIGOUROUS SPINNING LEH LOL.
Joan : HAHA, his reply damn funny!
dee : SORRY DEE, I overslept! OMG.
Olivia : HAHA HI CHOO
Rongshun : OMG!! Really?? Wah I am like damn pig LOL
Kwj : <3
Fiona : Ok!!
Sheryl : HAHA, omg I have been having ice lemon tea everyday, I think I'm going to have diabetes. ): I tried to destress but it doesnt work, ):
Xiuyun : HI XIUYUN (L)

And even if the moon fell down tonight

2009-08-05T07:41:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone, I'm so drained out.

Today's history test was really messed up. I didn't have enough time to complete the last question, so I went to attempt half of it, and did only half of the second last question :( And for the comparison question, I used the wrong method to compare and I thnk I'm going to fail horribly. This is sad. I need to start learning how to write faster and stop daydreaming!!

After school, had remedial then went off for tuition. Reached and I couldn't concentrate at first due to some things, so Kenneth decided to shift me into the room with Brent, then after those people left he talked to me about them. I think they're so lame, and shouting Genevieve/act go toilet is so discreet huh! -.-

I'm so tired right now, and I don't feel like going to school tomorrow cos thats what I always tell B & B after tuition, LOL. Plus, there is 2.4 tomorrow which I am so not ready for.

I am growing fatter like seirously, Macdonalds is ruining my life, I should cut down on my junk food/carbo intake.

I'm getting kinda stressed up lately, and I think I'll be attending Kenneth's more often. I hope that I will be able to have productive studying during the weekends, + tomorrow night's gna be fun! :) I need to buck up seriously, and stop being such a slacker!! I wna get back my study-whenever-I-can feel and not study-whenever-I-need/want feel, because that way I'll probably just screw everything up. I need motivation!!

This post is so wordy and nonsensical like all my other posts.
Pictures soon, sorry!

fame < infamy

2009-08-03T08:20:00.000-07:00

Hi all,

Saturday was spent in town with Kwj, (HI STEPH!!!)
Sunday was spent attempting to study
Today was just a waste of time (And I screwed up my oral : [literally translated to eng] "And the girl went underneath the escalator" -_- )

Tomorrow's the bio test and up till now, (11.30), I've only studied cardiac cycle, transpiration, and other stuff like cells etc. I'm gna be dead! :(
As of late, I've been slacking my ass off and I have been such a bum. I need to buck up and start my hxc study routine after 10 august!!! (I wna go Keane, anyone? :( ) Wednesday's the History test, and I still dk how to answer Utility based questions.
Today, I tried my best to understand Raja and I felt so mentally tired after that because shes so soft and it seems like she is speaking some alien language. Sigh, I want miss tia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On a lighter note, I passed my math! :) Like FINALLY after 15425357236e years. And also, I almost got 14/20 (a very good achievement for me) if I hadn't changed my answer the last minute. OMG.

Okay, I kinda gave up on bio as of now.
I HATE SCIENCE!!!!!
(as of now)

Get well soon, dee and choo! :)
P.s/ Sorry again to you for that post. It was out of anger and I hope you don't take it to heart! Anyway jy :)

tag replies :
Xiuyun : HAHA when the outside is noisy it seems like I am deaf in her class leh!
Corin, : HAHA! I heard from some others also, anyway thanks for telling me! :)
Liyi : LOL Idk if hes horny or not, we seldom talk!! :)
Rongshun : haha! maybe.. anyway, I bet you're feeling happy that I bought KWJ from ffs right, got profit now!! :D
QQ : HAHHA HELLO QIAN JING LOL. OMG DAMN CRINGE-Y LEH "GENEVIEVE" OMGOGGOGMOM. I WANT FOOD FEST!! NEXT WEEK? :D
dee : Hi dee!! Glad you're feelingbtter now!! I didn't go church either :/ cramps!!
Mirror : haha, but sadly I went to those places when I was kinda young so not much.. ying4 xiang4 on the places like US! Haha, the pictures are funny! And I thnk its fine if kwj wna say that whenever he wants :)
KWJ : I love you tooo!!! :)
Passerby 2 : Thank you! :)

Insomnia

2009-07-31T06:26:00.000-07:00

Hi!

Today was damn fun and I kept laughing so much :)

After school, went to Parkway with Bobo, Charlene C, Fiona, Liyeng and Qianjing.

Ate macs, then went to walk around, ad we went to play with Photobooth and laughed our asses off, HAHAH. Then Cindy joined us and we went to arcade. Ddr/Para, and then some impulse thingy came about and.. LOL.

Bussed home after that.

Lg has so many blisters!!!

Okay, I'm so tired and I thought there was school tomorrow, was thinking if I had poa tomorrow, -.-

bye! :)

But my extenstion cord wouldn't reach that far

2009-07-29T09:00:00.000-07:00

- I cannot stand mrs rajah o m g
- POA test, forgot how to do double entry!!
- Starting to hate chem
- Compared to mdm wong, mrs rajah is worse at teaching
- DCFC + Cobra fever is back
- Is so confused right now :S
- Stress
- Annoyed
- Doesn't understand someone
- Sad
- Not a toy
- Sleepy
- PE tomorrow
- SIGH
- Needs to make full use of National Day holidays to study like hxc!!
- My brother left for overseas, AGAIN -_-
- Feel like drinking soup
- Nights all! :)

2009-07-26T09:34:00.000-07:00

Hi IM BACK FROM THE LIVERPOOL MATCHHHHHH
I think it was quite ok in the end, and Singapore was damn lousy when Liverpool give face alr!1 + Torres scored :) :) :)

And dhrue! Choo and I saw a small boy that looks like you! HAHAA.
+ I took out my clavicle and tongue piercing becus my clavical is rejecting and my tongue hurts alot. And I'm addicted to I Wanna by AAR.

tag replies :
QJ : HAHAHHA YOU GUYS CAN COME OVER HAVE OUR MM3 AND FOODFEST AGAIN!!1
Xiuyun : :D
Jo : not repiercing already!!!! HAHA. Vert. labret (and maybe tongue) going to be my last piercings!!
Steph : HAHAHAHAHAHA. I miss you too :( Can we go out soon??
Rongshun : Hi rongshun!! :) Yah lor! Summore liverpool like so slack alr! Where did you sit at!!
Joan : HAHAHA. I think he/she is just superrrr curious!
Mirror : Haha, thank you! :) I don't really like my house, its damn freaky in the night! + before my parents had it renovated it was vacant for like 10 years.
Olivia : AHHAHA OMG + long pants AND BLINKLY VIGOUROUSLY LOL

Let There Be Love

2009-07-25T19:49:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, went to town with Kwj and friends and chilled till their movie started, then went for dinner and home. I ate alot yesterday, omg!

Today, my brother is finally home!! :) And he woke up me just now, and he bought me this bag with speakers and I can plus my iPod in LOL. I missed him alot, and now he can bake chouqettes and eclairs and croissants for me(fatsssssss)

Today is the Liverpool match, omg!!!

Shit, this post is nonsense, and I dont feel like going to school on the days with POA, because I dont understand shit , how to take test? :(

8-(

2009-07-24T07:20:00.000-07:00

Hi all, today was a damn tiring day for me, becus of the cough medicine.

I kept falling asleep in class, and sitting next to Vernon is quite awkward, we never even talk, except when he needed pencil lead and deciding on who should go to the otherside of the class, lol! :/

I feel like going jogging during midnight, but then I don't want to bathe so late. Furthermore, there is choir tomorrow, sian! Too early already. I also feel like doing school homework. I wish there were 30 hours in a day :(

I think I will :

10.40 (now) -11.30 > Homework
11.30 - 12 > Jog

Sounds fine to me.

Ok this post is so nonsense.

+ Stephanie Barbarella got braces already, love you miss you <3

Tag replies :

Jiakang : Hi tan! HAHA. Is this really you?

QQ : Hehezx eye lykes eat two OK I FAIled at typing that way -.- LOL

Passerby 2 : Trying to hold on.. :)
Xiuyun : THANK YOU XIUYUN!!1 I love you :)

dee : I think I miss out on alot! Anyway, the Cindy lookalike, omg!!! TOTALLY IDENTICAL HAHAHAHAAH. I wna see you karaoke more :) Thanks babydeee! (L) you!

When I am bored :

censored away my slitty eyes

BYE ALL :)

Animal I have become

2009-07-23T06:37:00.000-07:00

Hi all, today I skipped school because of a flu haha. Went to the doctor's and he said that its just a normal flu, which is good I guess?

Right now I still have not done much homework, and Im feeling so sian for school tomorrow because of the new seating arrangements :(

Life is sad.

Bye all :)

:@

2009-07-21T08:28:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling kinda annoyed with myself right now, because nothing is getting absorbed into my brain and tomorrow's the geog test. :( I really want school to close for 1 week because I need to slowly catch up on my homework and not dragging until after the deadline. My chemistry is cmi, actually both my sciences and math and poa and chinese are totally cmi. I shouldn't even be in this class becos its too smart for me. I can't seem to cope after the June holidays, and right now I need the proper time management. I wanna stick to my study timetable but I can't because of all the tests this week and next week I'm studying everything at one shot. I think I will sleep late tonight until I memorise every single piece of note, word for word. I know this isn't the proper way of studying but I'm so used to it. Omg, I am so afrais of everything right now, and all the insecurities and whatnots. July has not been a good month for me at all. I hope August will be better and I'm feeling kinda thirsty right now, I think I'm having a panic attack and I feel like breaking down now and this always happens when I can't seem to absorb anything oh my god I am going to go crazy soon. Tomorrow is gna be a long long day for me but no pain no gain right, 4 hours tuition 5-9 go me!! I think I will spend lesser time on the computer by limiting my usage to 2 hours daily. Ok this post is kinda junky.

Bye all! :)

('.')

2009-07-20T08:34:00.000-07:00

Hi all,

Saturday,

Spent my day watching Haunting in Conneticut with Kwj which almost brought me to tears, instead of scaring me alot. Afterward, Whitesands for arcade, then Macs. DBG to find Jk & Kwj's CLIQUE (haha). More arcade, then bus to 85 for dinner/supper. Fattening!!!!!!!!!! Omg.

Sunday,

Woke up for tution at Kenneth's. Not so productive becus I couldn't concentrate. After that, dinner at Lemongrass with Mom. + A conve with someone that made me lmao, HAHAHAH.

Today,

School (boring), I am lagging behind! And I think I am the only person that has not started studying for geog test, I am so deaddddd. Parkway after school with Cindy, Jo and QQ. It was damn fun and I repierced my eyebrow! Jo was supposed to get a piercing but in the end never. Shanice was very nice by giving me a new stud instead of sterilising my old one :) And somehow the piercing didn't hurt anymore. And I changed my rook stud finally after 1 year. -.- I'm feeling kinda stressed up now bcus Im afraid Im gna fail my geog test then I will fail like a loser x 100 for failing all my tests so far.

Okay, life has not been very nice to me as of late.
Things are going to get better!
But there are so many testsss & Hw & deadlines, I think its going to drown my class and I.
Hope the school closes for 1 week so I can relax sikit and catch up on all my freaking undone homwork. ZZZZZ.

Goodnight everyone, :)

A lesson in romantics

2009-07-17T01:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I had so much fun. :)

Kallang Leisure Park for Cindy & Charlene's birthday celebration, arcade and Marcus piercing his septum at the stairs.

Today, slept through the whole of POA, which makes me feel like a loser because I have no idea what is going on now. And my eyebrow piercing, for the 2nd time dropped out and I couldnt find the hole for 1 whole hour, so I closed it ): I'm too sian to repierce although I really want to, need to save money!! But, I think after wj's oral, hes going to get his angelbites and I might be getting my vert. labret :) Help me decide please, repierce horizontal brow or vert. labret first? :(

Anyway, I just need to clear my mind : I really don't like it, when people treat me like a spare tyre, a toy. Like when they have no one, they come to me. But when things are going well for them, I'm like almost a stranger again. Maybe these people don't know how hurting it is to be treated this way. ):

16th july

2009-07-15T09:23:00.001-07:00

Hi everyone! Its been awhile since I posted, hahaha.

Today was so tiring, class was boring and I am so lagging behind.
So much troubles and worries and stress piling over me like mount fuji, I am going to break. My eyebrow piercing dropped out last night (-.-) so I went to repierce it again today, haha! Im trying to screw on the ball now, but the size is too small, I think. I'm going to get another piercing (HAHA SHIT SORRY) I think, depends on * :)

After school, went to Pp with clique. On the bus we laughed like crazy and when the bus jerked we almost fell onto each other, damn funny like all the random people were am chio-ing HAHAHA. Had so much fun today :) Then, 14 home and Wj came to study. He left after dinner, and my mom accidentally threw my stud away :(

Today, 16th July is Cindy's and Charlene's birthday :)
Happy birthday, ILY both! :D

Cindy, thank you for everything, for being my gossip and eating partner, for helping me and being there for me whenever I needed help or just words of comfort. I'm always here for you too, you know it. We've been through a shitload of nonsense together, and there is never a day you didn't put a smile on my face. Without you or the clique, Idk what state I'd be in now. Enjoy yout day later, I love you <3>:)

Charlene, though we're not so close to each other, I still love you just as much. I love laughing with you when no one else gets the joke or whenever someone (aka cindy) says, "funny meh" and we will just break out into hysterical laughter. HAHA. I enjoy going over to Cindy's crib with you and just laugh and gossip about everything, and how Sam was so blur and she spilled the surprise party for you and Cindy in HK, LOLOLOL. Enjoy your day too! I love you :)

HAHAHAHAHAHA

rain dance ^^

tag replies :

Halo : haha! yup im sure you're good at other things :)

Alici : haha hi! :) you can get felt & cotton from any arts shop like spotlight, for the onigiri tutorial, you can use http://kezzi-rose.deviantart.com/art/Onigiri-Plushie-Tutorial-88137465

or http://coconut-lane.deviantart.com/art/Onigiri-Pattern-46250632 for reference :)

I never knew what love was for

2009-07-12T05:41:00.000-07:00

HI evrryone~~~~~~~!!

Yesterday was spent with KWJ, Citylink > Marina and Suntec to shop, then to T1 for Sushi Tei, then Ehub for Obsessed. Home at 2. Im so tired and I'm screwed for tomorrow omgogmgogmogm. Chem CA = GG!!!!

Bye everyone :)

Bombay Sapphire (HAHA)

2009-07-10T11:09:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone,

I feel so tired today.
Slept late the night before, and school was so boring and I felt so tired the whole day. After school, waited for Louis to come and pass me my GA dvds, then went to Thaipan for lunch with KWJ, Deeraj and Eric. After that, bus to PP to meet Ian, slacked awhile then cabbed home.

Met Cindy, then she went to meet people for awhile, then went to bathe. Q, Charlene and Jo went to find Cindy then Alvin came. After that they came back to my crib and we started slacking. The Wii's like spoilt or something, so dad sent it for repair just now :) After that, went to find Charmaine and then Eric and Jiakang came. Bombay Sapphire, then Eric and Alvin (especially) got kinda high and then they started dancing to MJ's songs + Boom boom pow, videos with QQ! HAHA! Epic videos omgomgg. Kwj and gang came in the evening and we played till 11ish.

I'm so tired now.
:(

Almost sick of the way you treat me sometimes

2009-07-07T08:55:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone! :)

I am the epitome of a slacker and a failure, omg!
Going to fail my chem so so so badly, because I don't understand Ionic Equations at all!
I never finish History yet, omg!
omgomgomgogmgomg p a n i c

On a lighter note, today I went to study! But it failed. Kinda. I was thinking about stitching and some other stuff, so after doing some bio, I went to buy some felt with KWJ at eastpoint, then went home and spent 3 hours (which I could have used to do my history) making an onigiri (rice ball) stuff toy :)

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^_^ LOL
Its name is Weijie, Haha! :D

Lol my laptop is in a bad condition omg

3 hours of hard work :)

Haha! Ok, still got time I'm going to complete the last part of history, go me!
Have a nice day at school tomorrow! :)

Tag replies :
Halo : Haha, but I bet you're like damn good at sports or somthing! yup :)
KWJ : <3, play nice!
Joy : I think I know what you are thinking of! ;)
Xiuyun : I where got emo! :(
name. : haha! Who are you? Anyway, he is KWJ :)
SHARM. : Hi Sharm!! Haha yup :D Saw you!
Qianjing : HAHA ICE LEMON TEA OMG THE IMAGINATION + ALVIN UNIFORM TODAY LOL

You could be my black Kate Moss tonight

2009-07-06T07:25:00.000-07:00

So today was spent at Parkway to repierce clavicle, then arcade > macs for lunch > ecp > home. It was kinda fun but I never do finish my homework! Tomorrow after school I better go finish evrythinggg. Need to turn over a new leaf 0:) haha qq!

I think I am going to sell off my HTC for Xperia, because my current phone is causing me alot of problems, and Xperia is not as bulky!
I think Xtina's songs are really damn meaningful, kinda random but ya :)

Just now I was thinking alot about some people and things, and I feel that in life you got to treat others the way you want to be treated. Sometimes going too overboard can jeopardise your r/s with whoever, and you don't know what you got till its gone. You need to do some soul-searching and dig deep within yourself, find the root of the problem and really have the heart to change, because action speaks louder than words. Because when the damage is too much, saying sorry won't make any difference.

Tag replies :
Xiuyun : THANKS SKINNY! HISTORY IS DAMN HARD!! i THINK I'M GOING TO FAIL THIS ASSIGNMENT :( And no laaa! Its like okok only, the stitches not consistent!
Dee : Oh.. Sigh get well soon :( Makes us all sad to see you in pain b/c you're our baby!
Cindy : HAHAHAHA OMG HER NIPPLE PIERCING TORE OFF LEH OUCH. HAHA SHIT TODAY MY DIET FAILED LEH I ATE MCWINGS!!!! :(
KWJ : I love you too! Haha no lor not pro! And the pig is you!
Halo : Haha thank you! :) You shd try stitching too! Very fun + it kills time :)
QQ : HAHAHA NUMBER 1 RACISTS. I KEEP LAUGHING WHEN I THINK OF WHAT LELE SAY LEH. HAHA NO LA ITS LIKE PALM SIZE, THE FELT I BOUGHT TOO SMALL!! SIAN. and idk leh! can anot???
+/JingWen/+ : Hi!!! :D
passer : Haha power of love :) You can get felt from those art shops, like spotlight (but their felt very small!) and like I think arab street/chinatown? They shd have felt too! Then get cotton stuffings, like those soft soft ones (Spotlight!), then draw a template for the heart on a pc of paper, then "trace"cut 2 pcs of heart-shaped felt. Use any stitching method (I used the box (??) method) and leave a gap so you can put in your stuffings, then sew the whole thing up! :) It was qq's idea cos she made it for our clique for vday, actually! :D

Everytime I look into your eyes I see the future

2009-07-05T07:14:00.000-07:00

Alvin Olvia Choo Primary 1 HAHA!

Bunnyhead! :) (The eyes look funny)

For KWJ
(Thanks q :) )

Hi everyone!

I'm kinda lazy to blog about the past few days but

- History is so hard to do
- Should I bring more baking soda and detergent for the geog thing?? (I scared that the baking powder under the table lao hong then unreactive)
- I got an interest in x stitching and sewing stuff
- I sewed my pants today haha
- Plus I bought felt ytd and today I sewed a heart for kwj (Credits to qq for letting me use her idea! :) )
- And a bunny head due to boredom!
- I need to buy more felt and threadsss
- going to make something new tomorrow!
- bunny reminds me of JOBUNNY
- Hi qq we are racist LOL
- Cindy OUR DIET STARTS TOMORROW!!! JY!! HOPE I DONT CAVE HAHAH
- Some pig is down with the flu now, get well soon! <3 - I can't wait for tomorrow!!!! - Louis got me addicted to Inquisitive - Have a nice day tmr :) Bye all :)

No Sunlight

2009-07-01T09:11:00.000-07:00

It has been a hell of a week although only 3 days have passed. I can't concentrate in class and I feel like moving to the front! I keep sleeping nowadays zzz. I have not completed alot of holiday homework like SS and history (I can't seem to dl the file online!!)

Tomorrow's until 2.30 + resilience workshop, then tuiton at 6.30 Omg I am going to sleep like some pig during tuition. I wna go do alot of things to relax and I can't wait for the long weekend :) hopefully within those 3 days I can sort things out in my life and get back on track. I need to really stop worrying so much and being so sensitive. I need to have a plan otherwise I'll probably just succumb to the stress and pressure and whatever and just shatter.

K I digress, Wj didn't reply me so I guess hes sleeping like some pig (as usual) !!

Nights everyone! :)

2009-06-30T08:23:00.001-07:00

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue, I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds, and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

I don't think I'll be good enough for you.

On fire

2009-06-28T06:44:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone! :)

Today I woke up late, then had lunch with mom. Went to meet wj after that, and went to buy dye. Dyed my hair, and now its jet black. (ASIAN BLACK LOL CINDY!!!!!)

School's tomorrow and I never finish hw yet, omg!
And our new classroom got no aircon, so sian! I think its going to be very hot.
I'm going to turn over a new leaf! HAHAHA. I shall be a more hardworking student. I need to stop feeling tired in class, and pay attention, do homework instead of copying.

I am feeling sick, hope no fever!

Qianjing Bisante says:
omg
gen
i was too agitated
typing to u
my shift
key
drop out

QQ, THATS WHY YOUR NAME IS Q AGITATED J, HAHA!

I think I'm the only one in my class that never do hw yet!! omg.

Okay I shall bathe and pack my bag for tomorrow! New teachers, omg :(

Have a nice day at school tomorrow!! Bye! :)

Tag replies :
Xiuyun : HI XY!!! Thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D Haha but I'm so lazy to do!!! :( And I can start poking you tmr >:)
Fiona : HI!! I didn';t recieve your call sorry!
Cindy : I WANNA CHANGE BLOG SONG ALREADY!! HAHAHAH NUTRITIONISTS LOLLOL
QQ : OoooOooOooO hi EQAJ cant wait to see you TOO!
Jane : HI!! \m/ HAHA its so sweet right!!
Dee : HI DEE! I MISS YOU :(
Jo : HI GHOST HI GHOST HI GHOST HIIIIIIIII~~~~
Ops! : HAHAHA thanks! but my bro not hot! HAHA and I'm not pretty!
Steph : I miss you wife! :( Yaaa omg damn lo man tik
Passer : Hi! Haha topshop! :) Np!!
KWJ : I love you too! :)

2009-06-27T12:50:00.000-07:00

Does anyone know how to do History hw?? :(
And do we have to pass up POA worksheets??
When is the heymaths maths questions online due???
:(

Damn you look good and I' drunk

2009-06-27T01:54:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone, I arrived in Singapore a few hours ago only, because my flight was delayed due to a black out when I was at the airport, best. Okay, today my plans were kinda ruined, and I was supposed to meet Q and all, but in the end I overslept.. So I'm just going to stay at home and try to finish some homework like english.

Pictures! :)

The Lourve

LOL my dad felt that the Mona Lisa was more impt s he focused on her

unglam and eyebagsss

Sacre Coeur

Entrance of Sacre Coeur

Some damn good football stunt(?) guy

5 euros & 350 steps to the top later

Top of Sacre Coeur

Eiffle tower

Mom and dad

Back of Notre Dame

Front

And my favourite pic (besides the minnie mouse one lol)
.

My bro decided to go paparazzi and took this pic (along with a few others) but this one was the sweetest :)

Okay, going to continue with english, bye! :)

2009-06-25T15:08:00.001-07:00

omg michael jackson is dead (tmz.com) omgomgomgomg I thinkhis songs are very nice esp beat it and thriller :(

Paris day 4+5

2009-06-25T13:48:00.000-07:00

Hi!! Yesterday, woke up at 6am just to get ready to go to Primtemp and La Fayette, cos there was a sale which my mom wanted to go once it opened. Omggg it was crazy and my mom went crazy as well. After shopping, we decided to go to The Lourve, and it was really really beautiful. I guess I'm starting to like Paris more now, because of its history and stuff. Felt really tired so we went home early, like 6pm and bought food home.

Today woke up slightly later, and first we went to see bro's new apartment he rented cos the one we're living at really is very rundown. I think the exterior's really nice! Like the 19th century apartments :) But too bad mom and I will not be able to stay there! After that, went to the Sacre Coeur Cathedral, which was amazing. Seriously. I felt God's presence, and I really just cried. Which means I felt God's presence right? Climbed up to the top of the church which made me so so tired, but the view was the best, haha :) likee 300 over steps up. Ok might not be alot to some people, but it is to me! Pictures will be up once I reach Sg! After that, had lunch and went shoppping again! Haha, then dinner near the Notre Dame, which was just as nice! :) Alright, going back to Sg tomorrow noon (Paris time!) Hope I don't suffer from jet lag, haha.

Overall, Paris is a nice city with really rich history, although some stuff have changed my impression of it, e.g some guy scolding this man because he didn't want to give him $ on the train, and 2 guys pickpocketing another guy and end up fighting, and some other stuffff. But, theres no place like homeee! :)

Tag replies :
Steph : HAHAHAHAA. I M Y, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, I L Y, CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU!!!! <3
passer : Haha, thanks on her behalf!! :)
Xiuyun : I bought you nice snacks so you can grow fatter :p I m y <3
QQ : LOLLLLL SHE VERY ANYHOW ONE LEH
Dee : DEEEE I miss you too!!! Can't wait to see you in schoool! Haha shes so anyhow!
Hola : Haha yah sia!! The sky looks fake HAHA. Go around this timing if you're planning to go next year! :) Not too cold not too hot :)
Passerby : Hi! Haha Idk, through friends and advertisments on pples blogs and stuff :) But theres Flea Titan this saturday! :) Haha I think its at Mt Sophia, I'm not sure but you can google it!! :D
Unkwn : Haha thanks :) But I don't think I am!
Fiona : Hi best I M Y too!!!!!!!! Yes I'm coming back saturday morning whee!

Tag replies :

Paris day 3

2009-06-23T11:40:00.000-07:00

(Sorry the pics abit mixed up!!!)

Some really very beautiful church :)
(btw this pic was taken at around 8pm!!!)

19th Century houses!!!

Le Cordon Bleu! (Brother's school)

La Vallee Outlet Shopping!

H&M OMG

Apartments near our place

Our apartment!

Arc De Triomphe's stairs!

Arc De Triomphe!

Some guy kept groping his girlfriend's butt so my brother "went paparazzi on them"

Eiffel Tower from Arc De Triomphe's terrace

Dad and mom

View of garden from our attic!

Living room/dining room

FOOD STASH LOL

Rayner

"Mei your face looks like a mantou"

Bro's friend : "Ju-on in Paris?!" -.-

Garden!

Hi! :)

I'm back from shopping and foood. Today wasn't as bad!!

Eiffel Tower in the morning, which was very cooling I guess! Saw alot of couples lying on the grasspatch in front of the Eiffel Tower, really sweet :) After that, had a heavy lunch and took the Metro to La Fayette and Printemps for shopping. Custom-made some Havaianas!! Althought the ones I made, Singapore got already -.- but theres some crystal on it, lol. OH, Steph, H&M doesn't seem to have the floral pumps!!! D:

Haha my mom :

Me and bro : using comp

Mom : (shout) OH SHIT

Me and bro : *VERY ALARMED*

Mom : Threw out wrong card! (Shes talking about her mahjong game on her phone -_-)

Okay, I am going to eat Pho now LOL. Bye! :)

Tag replies :

Xiuyun : HAHAHAHA. Slowly :) I MISS YOU, what you want from here!!!

QQ : HAHAH 8 AM SIAN NVM HOPE TOMORORW I'LL BE ONLINE WHRN YOU ARE!!

Jo : SOON!!!! SIAN I ALSO WANT TALK TO YOU LEH

Cindy : LOL WHY SO NOT EFFICIENT ONE THE POPUP BLOCKER. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. LEAVING PARIS FRIDAY 12 (PAris time) reach singapore 6am!!!

Paris Day 2

2009-06-22T14:39:00.000-07:00

Hi! Today wasn't as bad as yesterday where my dad almost got robbed or something? Took a new route to the Metro today, haha, Shopped alot and bought 60% or presents already, I think! I'm so broke nowwww omg. When I go back to Singapore I think I better not spend anymore money. And there was this very funny conversation that happened today :

Me : Omg those shoes damn nice sia.
Ray : -laugh- Go see la.
Mom : OI Don't go in ah, go eat lunch first
Us : oh..
Mom : -walk in-

ok I think I laughed like for 5 mins.

I miss everyone back at home, I want to go home so badly. I'm feeling so lonely here!! I miss my beddd and the safe enighbourhood, and I MISS THE WEATHER. Its so damn cold here.

Tag replies :
Sharul : Thank you! :)
Stephanie : I MISS YOU TOO <3 I WILL HELP YOU FIND THE FLORAL PUMPS OK
QJ : Wo xiang ni <3 CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU, come online soon got alot to talk to you about!! (lol its like 6am singapore time)
Fitri : I WNA EAT POPEYESSS!! haha and no! not really. The neighbourhood I'm staying at spoilt the perfect image I had of Paris :(
Jo : I MISS YOU TOO. I ALSO GOT ALOT TO TELL YOU!!! <3
Passerby : HI!!! Haha, soon alright :)
Reader : Yup! Haha, noo la! Haha, came here to accompany my brother so he can familiarise with Paris :)
Fiona : I MISS YOU TOO, CANT WAIT TO GO HOME <3
KWJ : I MISS YOU TOO. Hurry lets webcam now!! <3 <3
Cindy : AAHAHAHA HI CINDY OMG I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OUR VOLPTUOUS TEACHER HAHAHA

Where were you when we were getting high?

2009-06-21T09:28:00.000-07:00

Hi, I hate Paris la omgg I think I am home sick. Its 6 in the evening now at Paris (12mn in Sg) and I'm so sleepy. Rayner and I are currently mooching off our/his neighbour's internet connection hahahaa. We went to Arc De Triomphe, and shopped abit, but 90% of the shops were closed today. Tomorrow idk where we'll be going, but I want to go shop or something. Last night on the plane almost destroyed me. :( It was so tiring to sit in a chair for 12 hours doing homework, sleeping and watching tv while experiencing migraine and nausea during a turbulence. (Y) I wonder how I'll be able to sit through the next 12 hours back.

Haha tongight I think I'm eating instant noodles for dinner cos all the food shops are closed. Rayner's house is, example, you're staying near Red House, and the nearest food stall you know that is open is at Cityhall, and along the way to thr mrt station there are countless drug addicts and drunkards. This post is so whiny, I'm sorry but if you're in my shoes now you will understand.

And today we saw gypsies!! Haha so cool, but very scary. And we saw 2 that looked like the old woman from Drag me to Hell.

ok pictures on rayner's fb, byee!!

Paris

2009-06-20T03:06:00.000-07:00

Bye guys!!! I'm flying off in awhile, like 5 more hrs? lol I'll miss everyone ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I'll be updating regularly everyday(if I can) BTE CINDY, I'M STAYING NEAR SOME KOREAN AND JAP FOOD PARADISE YAY. IF YOU ALL WANT ANYTHING LIKE ALCOHOL OR CLOTHES OR FOOD PLS SMS ME OR IM ME OR EMAIL ME, I'M GOING TO MISS SINGAPORE FOOD LIKE SERIOUSLY AND I HOPE THERE IS A MACS NEAR RAYNER'S APARTMENT SO I CAN GO DRINK ICE LEMON TEA THERE LOL OK BYE GUYSSSSSSS!

Tag replies :

Qj : I MISS YOU TOO, THANKS AND I LOVE YOU!!!!
Jo : HURRY UP SAY LEH
Sharul : You also!

I don't feel the same

2009-06-19T00:47:00.000-07:00

I don't think I'm good enough for anyone or anything.

Love is watching someone die

2009-06-17T07:42:00.000-07:00

Today, I spent my day having lunch with family, and library again and then to Tmall in the evening to chill with Rachel and watch Drag Me To Hell.

Saw Charmaine and Bryan when i was leaving the library, sat with them for awhile and talked abit, cabbed to Tmall to eat, haha. Overall, Drag Me To Hell was damn freaky like the sound effects, and funny in a way. Both of us felt scared after the movie, so I followed her to Tmart to buy Ice lemon tea and to chill abit before going home. I miss hanging out with her and its been so long since I've seen her already!! Overseas in 3 days, and I hope and pray I don't have to get quarantined, because Leimee said if Paris got h1n1 then I have to stay home for 7 days? ): Sigh!!

Some pictures to make my blog look more alive.

I guess everyone knows whats inside? Lol

Some unglam pic of me but can see my piercing (very bloody)

And I really want to get my clavicle pierced again, ok like cannot really see the piercing? (above the iPod) And my hair that time was so neat! Esp my fringe. Now its like so asdfgh.

Sigh should I get it repierced?? But it took so long for the scar to heal (1 year??)

Okay I think this post is rather nonsense. I feel like playing ddr on friday or saturday :(

Bye everyone! Have agood day tmr :)

2009-06-16T11:15:00.001-07:00

i n f e r i o r

Unlock the box your heart's encased

2009-06-16T09:38:00.000-07:00

I can't stop blogging! Anyways I'm feeling kinda annoyed with myself and my short term memory, there is this very nice song in my iPod/iTunes which is really meaningful but now, when I want to listen to it, I just can't seem to remember the title!! zzzz omg.

Okay today's study was productive, in a way? Managed to complete Chem & Geog ws. Right now, I'm left with Geog group work, Maths group work, POA group work, Chinese group work, Bio section C, Webquest argumentative essay, Maths online stuff, History and SS. OMG NICE ONE. :( Tomorrow I think I got to seriously stop sleeping and dragging time before going to the library and such, because I will just end up there in the evening. Okay, I shall complete SS (what are we supposed to do?) and Bio tomorrow, Maths like at least half by tonight and History and English on friday or something. I feel so stress and I am so slack, omg! Okkk, then after studying, was supposed to meet Fiona but in the end she couldn't make it, so cabbed to Whitesands to have dinner with Kwj, then to ehub arcade to meet the rest of his friends, home after that.

Feeling so stressed up sighhhhhzhzzzzzhzhzhhz.

Tag replies :
Fiona : hi dear yes yes I love you alot, thanks for the pic! :)
Xiuyun : Happy waiting then! I shall poke you till I'm happy too ^^
Qianjing : I miss you too q :( Lets go out and eat budget-ly again and play comp and laugh at my pictures on the comp :(
dee : Nice anot!!! :D

Little Fury Bugs

2009-06-15T20:27:00.000-07:00

So after reading Fiona's blog, it reminded me of the conve I had with Jo last night about hair cuts, she wants to cut short hair, and somehow after we talked about short hair, I felt like (still feel like it) cutting my hair short again but I want to get like a half-mowhawk? Saw this girl with the hair I wanted omgg I think its nice, but I don't think I will get it any sooner? I invested alot of $ (30 BUCKS IS ALOT OF $ :( ) into buying hair growing shampoo and its working in a way, and so if I cut it off now its like not very worth it and I doubt the school will let? How?? Omg tempting.. and are pple in Paris good at cutting hair?? But I scared wait I get a haircut there then the communication problem will result in some weird hairstyle? IDK omg.

Woke up at 9 today for tution, what a miracle. And I think I'm one of the few people who never finish holiday HW yet, I feel like some slacker! :( Later I shall chiong and finish at least 90% of the individual work. Library again later on, ciao!

My back has been breaking, from this heavy heart

2009-06-15T07:39:00.000-07:00

Slept for about 2 hours only this morning, I am feeling so tired now.

Study at MP lib sort of failed cos I forgot to bring alot of things. Tomorrow shall be better, I hope! Tuition at 9am, good luck to me :(

I feel sick and I feel like throwing up, goodnight.

tag replies:
Xiuyun - Too bad you have to wait till school reopens! :p
Cheryl.t - Thanks cheryl! :)
Cindy - Sorry! Anyway I told you through sms already! I miss you too :(
Qianjing - ILY <3>

edit :

GOODBYE MONROE PIERCING :(

(Yes I took it out after 1 month because it has caused my gum recession which is ireversible sigh I spent alot of time and $ on you now its all gone to wasteeeeeee I cannot find any pictures of you nvm, goodbye <3)

1963

2009-06-14T02:24:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone, I am feeling better already, despite the occasional I-am-worth-nothing feeling, so thank you :)

Yesterday was spent at Cityhall and 85 with Fiona and Kwj and friends. Met Fiona and went shoppping and Im broke. I'm not going to shop anymore seriously. Saw alot of funny things, and this man that walked up to Fiona and pumped his fist singing Just Dance by Lady Gaga hahaahahaha omg. Supper and home at midnight. I am having insomnia lately. I think I think too much before I sleep, this is so >:(

Tomorrow I will go study again and I got to remember to charge my iPod and bring the correct books, and not get distracted by anything or anyone! I think studying alone is better cos you won't get distracted to talk or go to Macs to eat dessert.

Okay, bye everyone! Have a nice day :)

I guess everyone of us (yes, including me) is pissed at you for going overseas despite reminding you about Fathers' Day, your day. Thanks ah.

Tag replies :

Cindy : Thanks girl Im fine now!! But still its so... ARGH... (Im talking about that thing and you know who) When you come online tonight I tell you something about.. you know who (I THINK YOU KNOW WHO IM TALKING ABOUT???)

Passerby : Haha pre menstrual symptoms or like whatever else Steph said! :)

Steph : I love you too cheer up also ok your blog so emo smile be happy think about the pictures on my comp :) we shall guitar hero again soonly!

Your supporter : Hi! Thanks, you're so sweet :)

Xiuyun : Hi xiuyun thank yoU!! I'm feeling better already! I miss you, skinny girl! :(

When there is nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire

2009-06-12T06:12:00.000-07:00

I guess that makes perfect sense.

I spent my day at the library, and I think my brain almost exploded. Its been so long since I tried to study already. I am only done with the section As of both bio papers and abit of section B and then I felt so tired. Whatever it is, I guess I got to persevere now and continue going there next week before Thursday.

Idk if its PMS or what, but I have sunk to a new low of feeling sad and gloomy. Sometimes I really don't understand myself at all. I guess I thought about too many things on the bus just now, and I am so annoyed at myself. My feelings are all so.. rojak-ed now. My heart feels funny. Seems like nothing can describe my mood. Somewhere along the lines of pissed hurt shocked excited sad-yet-happy and I-just-want-to-roll-in-my-bed-and-care-about-nothing. And all these feelings since the time I woke up has caused me to not have an appetite so today I didn't eat, but I drank alot of liquid and I'm so bloated.

This is a junky post and a very weird friday.

Hope you enjoy your weekends, xx

Talking Bird

2009-06-11T08:37:00.000-07:00

Spent my day at Cindy's crib, and ended the day feeling sick HAHA. It was fun though. Tmr I will be spending my day alone studying somewhere (idk, pp?) or something, cos I got to do finish my holiday homework before I go overseas, and to take my time to study the subs Im weak in and stuff.. Okay the videos (damn embarrassing) are up and I kept laughing at my idiotic actions ok bye!! :)

Shuffle in diagonal (HAHA GUYS)

2009-06-10T09:47:00.000-07:00

Hi! Yesterday was spent with Jerome, Steph, Daniel, Elizabeth and Francasca (?) at Cityhall. Hannah Montana movie, sushi and getting high. Met wj for dinner, then home.

Today was damn fun like haha yes. Steph came at 11 then she went to play guitar while i went to bathe and stuff. Came down and started guitar hero. Then QQ came then we played more GH then Cindy and Jo came and we had Popeyes and coke. Then we played more GH, then we got tired so we made videos (all on fb tmr) like hoedown throwdown dance HAHA and Steph's phillipino and china accent PRICELESS.

Then we ordered Macs milo mcflurry and ice lemon tea :) then Steph and Q continued having a hxc GH session (11am - 5/6pm), while Cindy, Jo and I were talking alot. Then Steph continued to GH and play comp while the 4 of us had our nice talk which was about gossips, family life and all :) Then we talked and literally rofl-ed on the kitchen floor and then they all went home. I love all of them so much xoxo ok cindy qq jo (gangster) and steph love you guys!!!!! After that, had dinner with parents and wj, then we watched some ghost hunting show damn scary ok bye everyone !!! :)

Pretty. Odd.

2009-06-06T23:13:00.001-07:00

SHIOK

(Will post the rest tonight!!)

Hi everyone! Lately I have been screwing up my body clock. Sleeping late and waking up late. have totally did nothing productive during the 1st week of June, except eating and spending money.

Next week onwards Im going to hxc study, and probably alone cos I will get distracted. Right now I am craving for gelare chocolate chip waffles with chocolate sauce with cookies and cream ice cream, the crispy fish thing from bugis, tea egg, ice lemon tea (macs), shaker fries (lol), sushi and popeyes chicken. I am such a pig.

I don't know what else to blog about, but I dreamt of talking fishes last night.

Byeee!

Hysteria

2009-06-04T07:32:00.000-07:00

Hi! Today I went to Vivo and Orchard with Fiona! I highlighted my hair and it looks so ugly! She (hairdresser) cheated my feelings cos she said the colour will look very natural and I don't have to dye it back when school reopens, but its so. so. so. obvious. :( We bought cheap shoes, and idk what to blog about. :( I think my hair is growing after using the hair-growing shampoo, lol! I hope to have shoulderlength hair in 2 months time!

Anyway to Dislike, I hope you won't judge my friends by the way they hold cameras or their pictures. Even though she may seem as if shes not holding the camera properly to you, she IS really VERY careful with it. And you said that you're someone I/we dislike, then why did you say "so if i tell u who i am, you will know me?" Like what Cindy says, at the end of the day, even if your dslr's worth $45367289486, if you take shitty pictures, does it even matter? Qj takes really very nice pictures, with or without a dslr. "oh funny. Please even know who I am before saying that. so please. I used much better dslr than hers. way better. DOTZXZXZ" Well, do you even know QJ at all to judge her? DOTZXZXZ~

And to Curious, its a piercing, but its kinda infected, haha. Anyway thank you! :)

P.S Cheryl showed me this video, I think its damn funny LOL

Bye :)

geqjphandy!

2009-06-02T09:39:00.001-07:00

EPIC HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

RAIN DANCE LOL

"i want to fart" face

Hi! Finally something to blog about, haha.

Sunday was spent with Cheryl at vivo, haha it was damn fun, but no pictures! And today was spent with Cindy, Steph and QQ. It was damn nonsensical and crazy and fun omg ok and I ate alot, as inseriously alot! But i cant really be bothered about dieting anymore. Pictures are at FB, but I will upload all the epic ones here LOL. Ok sorry guys, fb isnt uploading part 2 of the pictures so some of them are here!!

ok I am so tired now, NIGHT!

Do the panic

2009-05-29T08:21:00.000-07:00

Today's finally the last day of school! :) I will relax for awhile before I start studying hard. I am 22nd in class and like, my l1r5 is like 26 -.- I feel so.. kdjbvsdv ok I shall work hard!!!

After school, went to PP with kwj, and then went home to sleep, then get ready to go to esplanade with Crystal :) Like finally after so long, haha. We caught up alot and had alot of fun. Nick's performance was so.. depressing and melancholic, I felt so.. undescribable after watching it, haha.

After that, I felt hungry and we walked over to the flyer for Popeyes, sigh!!

Ok anyways I will finally post pictures, and tomorrow after kc carnival and more I will get pictures from the rest! K everyone have a goodnights rest, bye :)

OH YAH, LOL just now I dreamt that leimee suddenly got swine flu unknowingly, and then she went to 3r4 to teach us bio (huh??) and in the end all of us also got swine flu, so we suddenly appeared at eastpoint except it was much bigger and looked abit like funan, then we tried to find doctor, in the end the doctor was in our school library? LOL k then we were seeking for medical help, and leimee was sent to europe cos they had her quarantined there. omg so random!!

Cute! :)

damn chio!

Aggressive trying to attack me with her jacket

So so so nice!

Slipping in my faith until I fall

2009-05-27T08:59:00.000-07:00

Today was fun and very very very tiring! haha.
After school, Cindy, QQ and I went to tmall to buy food, then went back to my crib. Ate and talked and caught up with our lives, and ate like no tomorrow seriously. After eating and laughing alot, we felt damn tireed LOL so we went to play raving rabbids, and laughed more. Ok, I tried to upload the pictures but 1/2 of them can't be seen, so please go to http://ilikegoldfishes.livejournal.com/109401.html or mine/qq/cindy's fb for all the pictures!

Tag replies :

QQ : YAH SIA :P

Jo : what thing bad!! I think i anyday also free.. u leh!! forever busy one!

I was a kaleidoscope

2009-05-26T04:10:00.000-07:00

Today was so messed up and dramatic seriously. K I'm not really supposed to say what happened? But I think alot of sec 3s already know, haha. Anyways, I fell asleep at the police station while waiting omg I'm like some pig!! I feel bad for the guy esp when they police escorted him out of school with handcuffs omgggggg but I still feel he deserved it!!

School is so boring and classes are still on, and its so.. sian. Tomorrow is movie day, with alot alot of food, I am craving for beach rd prawn noodle and ngoh hiang very badly now............ :( K I'm so tired now, I think I'm going to sleep soon, ciao!! :)

Tag replies :

Sharul : :D
Unknown : haha omg today I didn't care abt my weight and ate like milo mcflurry its so so so nice.
QQ : LOL shawn tok chi feng shan remember?? LOL yes omg today so drama and choir was fun we were shocked like siao LOL. can't wait for tomorrow!!
Xiuyun : lol!! lazy tell :P hi skinny girl!
Cheryl.T : Hi shallots, CANT WAIT!!
Fiona : I MISS YOU TOO :(
not cindy : HAHAHAHAHAHAHA WAH CINDY DAMN OBVIOUS U LOL "NO STRENGTH TO GROPE" LOLL
Jo : yesss you mia like crazy, coming tmr? I MISS YOU!

Vheissu

2009-05-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

Today I went for choir, and it was alright, but we didn't have practice. I guess today was like an icebreaker session? After choir, was supposed to go Whitesands but mom wanted me to stay at home. Reached home and slept for 4 hours (I feel like a pig).

I am somehow motivated to study extremely hard during the holidays and I am going to make sure that I will make a big improvement in my studies. I will not slack so much in class already. I feel like changing places, the back is too distracting haha.

My eyes are so itchy, I think they are infected :(
Ok can't wait for next week! :) Sushi, wanton mee, beach rd prawn noodle + ngoh hiang and subwayyyyyyyyy~~ Sian the weight that I lost is going to return again :(

I miss all my friends, QQ, Cindy, Dee, Annajo (haha), Rachel, Jolene, Alvin, Fiona, Stephanie, Jerome, Crystal, Cheryl, Debs and those that I haven't seen in ages like Yunhi and Faith :(

SIGHHHHH. When the holidays end, I plan to earn 1.5 mil on neopets, maintain a neat room, not spend too much money, study very hard and be happy. When the holidays start, I will compile a list and hope I can complete everything!

I AM HAVING A VERY VERY HUGE CRAVING FOR MILO MCFLURRY AND MACDONALDS ICE LEMON TEA.. ARGH!!

Tag Replies :
Sharul : haha you too, don't so emo la!! we'll hang out again when the holidays start!
Hehe : Haha thanks :) I hope I can toooo!!
Xiuyun : I hope I can do well!! Haha you're so skinny, eat more!! :P

One day the sun will come out

2009-05-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

The past few days hasn't been good for me, and it had put me through alot. But I know I am better already, although I really want to see the doctor, cos I hate this. Maybe time will help me and I will be stronger. But I want to really thanks those that encouraged me and never gave up one despite my crazy imaginations and whatever nonsense I spoke. Thank you for not judging me and for being there for me 24/7. You know I'll be there for you too :)

Results were so. so. so. disappointing. :(
Failed both sciences by 8-9 marks, and this term I failed 4 subjects :(
I guess even though I studied, it wasn't enough. I probably lacked the discipline and time management, so I shall plan a timetable and stick to it once june holidays start.

No surprises by Radiohead has got to be one of the saddest songs ever with lyrics that scream suicidal thoughts.

There is choir tomorrow, and I will have absolutely nothing to do after that. I think I will be a good girl and stay at home to pack my room. I think its a bit too messy already especially with a new pile of books on the table.

I think I digressed alot while writing this post.

Bye everyone, 1 more week till school closes, and this coming thursday during pe is doomsday for me haha Christine!

Tag replies :
Hehe : Haha :) Stephanie is the sweetest!
Steph : Haha crazy girl!! Anyways youre so lucky sigh I miss you so much, we need to catch up I HAVE ALOT TO TELL YOU TOO (L)
Sharul : (:
Unknown : Thank you unknown, you're very sweet! :)
QQ : lol!! nvm!! omg I LIKE ADAM :( AND IF I COULD I WOULD DROP EMATHS LOL
Cheryl T. : hey!! not yet! sorry! :( Btw we need to catch up shallots :( + church!!

hurricane

2009-05-20T05:21:00.000-07:00

So we got back most of our results today except both sciences an ss i think , and they are kinda disappointing :( English, my overall is 63!! So sucky, 10 marks difference from the previous term tskkkk!! History, I just need 1 more mark to get 75% and for maths and chinese, I improved! Still failed, but improvment!! Chinese was boderline fail, while maths is like.. LOL 32/100 nice one.

June holidays will be spent revising and studying and putting in 100x more effort than I did this term. Also I have lost 2kg within a week! :) Back to my orginal weight now.

Sigh sigh sleepless nights for the past few days, tonight is probablt going to be another one. I am having a splitting headache now, bye everyone!

Tag replies :
Hehe : I think cos its so sweet thats why its nice!! haha.. yup! :)
Xiuyun : sameeee sian results :( bio and chem is like totally hopless for meeee
Christine : lol!! omg so addictive and im so sian cos of the marks!!
Unknown : hi anony! Thank you! :D
Sharul : haha I will, don't worry. smile k! :)

I'll take a quiet life, a handshake of carbon monoxide

2009-05-18T06:31:00.000-07:00

Hi! Today officially marks the end of examssss, and I am kinda happy. Have not been spending time at home lately, I guess I will spend tomorrow at home helping mom do chores! CCA is starting soon, and I feel abit sian since its in the morning..

Today, after exam went home to rest, then went to meet clique at tmall/t1 for Ramen Girl and food and nonsense! So fun catching up with them after splitting, I miss 2r1!

Anyways, school's ending in 2 weeks, and I can relax~ Okay Idk what to blog about, so Im going to post some pictures so my blog wont seem so boring.

Nicholas Hoult :)

Olivia Choo!

K only 3.. the rest is still in the camera + jo's cam!

bye everyone :)

Tag replies :

Fiona : I love you dear muackZ

QQ : Hehe hi frolick hi popeyes HI SUBWAY!!! i like my pimple toooo :) BEJEWELED GO PLAY!!

Olivia : Happy sia new nose shit!!!!

Xinyi. : Ty :) haha posted pictures!! :D

Sharul : Haha dont worry k!! You also dont so emo, your fb so emo one!

Hehe : Drink ice lemon tea too!! :D Im not stressed anymore :)

Passerby 2 : Hehe Im happy!!

And theres a scene that I'll always replay

2009-05-14T06:33:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow's the last exam for me! I am happy, yet its kinda stressful for me, because I have kinda forgotten my notes on tectonic plate movement, relief/convection rain, monsoon climates, flood and droughts, basically everything except for monsoon winds -.- nice one, and I only got till, 2 am (latest) to memorise all these. Tomorrow morning I shall drag myself up to meet 2nd bestie for breakfast and go schoolk for examssssss. 1 and a half hours, I cross my fingers and toes and pray that the paper will be do-able, and that after I finish the paper I would be smiling instead of the usual omg-confirm-fail face.

Today was spent at Singpost with Ian, Eric, Alvin, Weijie and Deeraj to study. Best part is that we took a bus, and missed our stop and went all the way to toa payoh -_- Did not study much because we kept talking, and I think I am giving myself alot of stress or something along those lines or I think its my menses causing my hormones to go haywire, but I have been breaking down recently, and I hate it :( Also, recently I have been wanting to _____ very very badly despite knowing the consequences, and now I fear I am becoming ________ again, constantly ________ and beginning to over-______ Sigh unhealthy lifestyle.

Ok, I am not going to play bejeweled. Instead, I'll go study and re-do all the test papers miss lam gave!! Nights everyone, good luck for tomorroww!!

All that's left

2009-05-13T05:48:00.000-07:00

Have been studying for the past few days till kinda late in the night, Im so tired nowadays, I fall asleep even while doing the papers halfway :(

Tomorrow's sort of the 2nd last paper for me, maths paper 2, I hope I will be able to do most of the questions, and that I will be able to clear up all my doubts like coordinate geometry and indices by midnight!

Friday would be geog which is something like death for me, since there is so much to memorise. Sighhhhh I think I got to stay in the shower to memorise alr! Totaly forgotten monsoon winds and all that.

ANYWAY! The doctor said its some sort of insect bite, which someone gave me soo many bites, but after applying some cream the bites aren't so serious already :D

Tag replies:

CARMEN: LOL yah but its super funny!
passerby12345/Cindy : SUPER OBVIOUS IS YOU HAAHAHAHAHAHA OMG POPEYESSS
Fitri : Sian can we eat popeyes to relieve stress??
Jarratt : LOL
Sharul : hahaha sorry!
Passerby 2 : 2 more days of stress and I can relax!!! :D
belleanne: super!! omgg love him.
Gabriel : gabriel.. LOL get well soon!
QQ : LOL ben10luvr123@hotmail.com
Fiona : luckily!!
Sam : luckily it isnt!!
Cheryl.T : i never tried before!! sounds nice though.. hahaha

>:(

2009-05-11T08:57:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was spent with brother and mom at mt sophia's wild rocket for dinner! Food was nice especially the cheesecake yummmm but then I am feeling so fat now. :( I love my mom! :)

Today was failure to study day, airport then home to study. In the end, time was spent playing guitar hero, watch youtube and eat junk food.

Tried so hard to memorise the essay on the rise of Stalin, but in the end it only took me 15 minutes when I memorised it in the shower. I think i got to start studying while bathing!! Tonight I am going to chiong study till 2am, I don't care about the consequences tomorrow, I will just eat something sour and jump about to curb the tiredness.

Red rash like spots are like on my tummy and mom says it might be chicken pox :( This is so kjgbjehsgdiukgj for me because I have 5 tests left till mid years are over, and all my efforts studying would be wasted if I really get infected with it.

Feel like moving back to Lj, but I don't feel like using daytimedramaaa anymore.

OK BACK TO STUDYING, GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!! :)

Somewhere weakness is our strength, and I'll die searching for it

2009-05-10T03:46:00.000-07:00

I am having cramps x100 now
Once again, I want to pluck out my ovaries
I dreamt that I was playing basketball with a tangyuan a few nights ago, while singing jay chou songs. nice.
I slep at 7am last night/today, because I was studying, although it was abit unproductive cos I couldn't concentrate.
Woke up at 1.30 and got ready for tuition
Cramps
Cramps
I CANT STOP LISTENING TO TING MAMA DE HUA OMG
Cramps
No mood for history
GG

bye everyone, happy mom's day!

Sharul : I guess so.. thanks sharul! and I feel so ps about ur quiz omg!!
Qj : HAHA BUT I dont know what happy song to put!!
Christine : looks so shiok right!! :( lets go eat after exams!!
Fitri : Omg you take hmt meh?? :/ hahaha okok after exams!!! i will tell u what happened online!

trust the voice within

2009-05-08T01:25:00.000-07:00

i hope no one sees me now, for they will be seeing the weaker side of me that i honestly do not want anyone to know abt.. i shd just concentrate on rmbring myhistory and not be so damn 3m0tion@l

:(

You're so bright that you shine right through

2009-05-07T09:15:00.000-07:00

Today was chemistry which spelled gg no rm and my mood went totally......... omg I am going to fail. How do you find the isotope mass thing???? huh???? I think I lost like alot of marks already. If somehow I can get 50 marks I will rejoice.

Went home to sleep for 5 hours haha sleep-deprived!!! After that, met kwj and went to ehub to watch Jalan Tegur omg.. First 45 minutes was so traumatizing.. The sound effects were so scary! Dinner, then slack then home.

Tomorrow and the next few days will be hxc revision for bio, poa and history. I got to score well for bio since Im going to fail chem. :(

My hair is growing! And qj/cindy!! LOL my mom calls you guys the group that laughs like crazy HAHAAHAAHA.

Tag replies :
Passerby 1 : Oh! haha hello! :)
Xiuyun : trying!! I hope it is improving although I feel like dropping to CLB!!
Passerby 2 : hehe hi!! :)
Jocelyn : ok!! cong tuesday kai shi wo hui gen ni jiang hua yu!!
Fitri : I got wrinkles!! and alot of blemishes!!! and hes coming back tomorrow, whee! haha idk!! trying not to be stressed!! dont stress too! lets go eat lunch.
Qianjing : HAHAHA COMMENTED!!
passerby12345 : CINDY POH (CINNAMON CLOUD) RIGHT!! LOLLL
cindy : HAHAHAHA YES OMG LETS ACE THIS BITCH TOGETHER!! want go eat popeyes after exams?

edit :

LOL THIS VIDEO DAMN FUNNY/RETARDED

escape from this afterlife

2009-05-05T06:41:00.000-07:00

Everyone, I am dying from the stress to get good grades. My class is too smart for me already! :(

English was alright, but my compo is probably going to pull my marks down cos I wrote super unrealistic stuff. Chinese compo/letter writing is going to kill me because of my outrageous story about ramen (I was craving for it at that time) and the use of han yu pin yin. The Chinese paper itself was managable, and I hope I will be able to pass!

Tomorrow is SS and maths paper 1 totally suicide. :( I have been killing myself slowly with SS, and up to this point (9.55pm), I have only memorised the causes of conflict and consequences of conflict about 90%, and 50% of Role of British Army. Someone tell me how am I going to get good grades tomorrow?? I can't really be bothered about maths already.. Omg! And chemistry on thursday = GG for me. + Ehistory the following week which involves memorising cancer producing-hair dropping-pimple producing essays. Nice one. I am starting to get eyebags and pretty soon I will start getting wrinkles. I will look like some zombie by end of next week if I do not plan my time properly. This is totally like a ranting post, and right now I should be in the toilet bathing and reading notes pasted on the outside of the showerglass but no, I am like wasting my time here and I hope I will not get tempted to play that stupid Bejeweled Blitzzzz.

I need to calm myself down, because I can feel my hair pores slowly opening up, weaking my hair roots and soon I will start BALDING. :( I shall go crazy memorising consequences of conflict fully right now.

Good luck to everyone whos taking their midyears! Hope you'll remember whatever you studied and ace ur tests! :)

Tag replies :
Xiuyun : Thank dear, you too :)
Qianjing : hehe get a tagboard for your lj (possible??) !! I will be your number 1 tagger.
Passerby : Thanks passer :) you too!!! (if you're having exams now)
Passerby : Thank you :) (are you and the other passerby the same person?)
Qianjing : OMG
Fitri : Hi fitri!! You too ok! <3 Anyways the skin doctor went for holiday.. so sad!! I got to wait till 8 of may :(

half hearted fool

2009-05-02T10:21:00.000-07:00

So yesterday wasn;t a really good day. After red house, a chain of damn sian events happened, and somehow my thinking went jhfbwhfsb which led me to the airport despite telling pple not to go, but I couldn;t be bothered about my health then after being overwhelmed by sadness. I regret alot now -.- Cos I got flu and I got fever just now omg I kept thinking it is swine flu I am feeling so sian. After attempting to study, went to whitesands to play arcade and eat, then went home.

Today, 3 hours maths tuition which probably triggered my fever, and right after, went to eastpoint to meet the kids for some studying which failed after I did fnish the bio paper.

Im feeling so stress, omg!!! and I just realised why everyone is studying ss, its the 3rd exam paper (and i thought that it was same day as elective history, nice)

Tag replies :
Cindy : I CAN;T STOP EATING.. :(
Qj : GET WELLSOON!!!!
Stephanie : I MISS YOU ALSO, Im so happy after seeing you ytd, lets go out soon!
Xiuyun : Yah !! :( Sian!! I keep failing the bio papers, I am so lousy!!!

2009-04-30T09:43:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired after the sajc choir concert.. Ate and ate more, laughed over nonsense and stuff. I miss qq!! Hope your leg gets better alright, and take care of yourself!!

School was tiring today, and I feel so stress yet I am not doing anything about it, because right now I should be studying, yet I'm too tired to study. I got to have proper time management for studies, and I think my brain's about to explode. :( Geog, SS and History are going to kill my brain cells. My results are so horrible now, my english compos have de-proved by 1-4 marks, and I failed my bio test :( K maybe cos I studied the wrong chapter, but its still my fault for being so stupid!! Im so afraid I will fail mid years and I will be so demoralised, so tomorrow after red house will be hxc studying.

Im also so worried about the swine flu :( I feel so scared now, and just now I saw someone attempting to commit suicide by sitting on the ledge of a flat on the 2nd topmost story, I think its really sad.. :( I;ll reply the tags tomorrow because now Im so tired...

God bless!

We Cry

2009-04-28T07:16:00.000-07:00

Pictures, Overdue from Oasis + recent!

Hashbrown look-alike! :) Thank u Joan, Sarah, Sheryl and Zhaobin! :)

And the rest if from Oasis!

School for the past few days have been fine, and I am not feeling that sad already, today I didn't emo at all which is good! Have been talking to Christine and I guess we do share the same thoughts about certain things.. haha. And today was bio test, and I am now starting to slack abit already. I need to get back my motivation I had a few days ago and work harder although its kinda stressful.

The swine flu thing is scaring me so much because first is the economic downfall, now this pandemic (?) which only brings 1 thing to my mind : THE WORLD IS ENDING. :( I am so terrified, and Im very scared I will get swine flu... omgomg.

After school went to look for Miss Khoo with Christine, Natasya and Tauhidah! Then, went home to rest, and went to BK to meet Kwj, Deeraj and Eric for study! I am so tired now.... And finally the 1st homecooked meal after a long time :) And, my appetite is getting bigger and bigger... omg.

Haha I guess its been awhile since I had a cheery post and I feel kinda weird.

Tag replies :

QQ : heheh DONT SAD ALREADY PLS :( I love you!! Anyways, I am craving for macs breakfast leh!! omg. + no la, only on weekends then I study till late!!

+/Jingwen/+ : HellO! :D

michelle : Thanks girl! Anyways I am getting fat at the rate I am eating!! omg like some monster.. :(

Christine : HAHA omg yah we shd stop being so tired already!!

You made yourself a bed at the bottom of the blackest hole

2009-04-26T04:06:00.000-07:00

My eye bags are going to be huge by looking at the timings I sleep during the weekends. 4.30 last night, and Im still left with one more chapter, and after looking at my tb, I realised bio test is on tuesday, not monday. Best.

Did math today and I understand nothing. I need to seriously work hard for maths cos its always my maths that pulls down my grades.

Been sad since last night, and I don't like it. I feel so uneasy and sian. Adding on to my emoness, I am feeling so stressed and pressured by the exam stress, and best part is I am falling ill :(

I've yet to start studying for chem, and I got to brush up on chinese (hopeless) and maths. :((((((

And hold me in your stand still ground

2009-04-25T09:14:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone, I am so drained. Slept at 5 after studying, then woke up at 12. Lunch with Mom and Rayner, then went home to change and stuff, then went to Bedok to meet Fiona. Spent the day at Cityhall, and chilled at Esplanade. Took cab from Marina to Far East and went to look for some hat shop (sup/sub (?) crew) to buy present, but in the end cannot find.. So we went to walk arnd summore and.. :) HAHA FIONA..

Anyways, took mrt home and reached at arnd 10ish. I need to study enzymes tonight because of the Bio test on monday, I think I am going to fail it :( I feel like eating alot of things, sigh feel so fat!

Im so addicted on Over and Over by Rachael Yamagata now.. And she played it at her concert very nice + shes so pretty. And her songs make me sad.. Either abt death or love. Sigh sigh sighhhh I want be happy like last year, this year is so.. sad.

Tag replies :
Cindy : Sorry :( Don't be sad alright! I'll be fine soon, k! Love you! Lets go eat our hearts out.. very hungry now! hehe
Pb. : Oh! Hello! Haha thanks! :)

Throw yourself in the midst of danger, but keep one eye open at night

2009-04-24T01:00:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone, today school was tiring. POA test is a confirm fail for me since my a/cs dont balance at all, SS was hard and english was quite alright, I guess. After school, was supposed to go visit Dee, but in the end no one went, so went to some random block near tmart to slack with Rach, Xuelin and Raiyan. After that went home. I'm going to have a nap now and after that I'm heading out again for some studying. I think its easier to concentrate while studying alone, cos no distractions and stuff. Hopefully I'll be able to study finish bio, and all my hw! Tomorrow I'll be spending time with Fiona and we will be going shopping! Can't wait to see you <3 + we can relieve our stress and talk. Cheer up alright? I know how you're feeling now, so you're not alone. Love you <3

Tag replies :
Fiona : Thanks dear!
Sharul : Thanks! Haha not emo..
Felicia : Yah lor! So wasted, tsk. Anyways the SS was so hard! :(
Cheryl : Thanks shallots, love u!
Qianjing : I hope I can!! Love you too <3 Get well soon, come back to school cos IMY!!!

You don't know what you got till its gone

2009-04-23T02:06:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow's filled with tests. POA for the first period (which I am going to fail because I forgot how to do double entry and trial balance and basically everything.), next is SS (going to fail as well) and after that is english which I am pretty worried about, must maintain my marks! Today in class it was so horrible, so boring and we kept complaining about the SS teacher haha.

Im so drained nowadays, and thoughts can't stop running through my mind, I don't want to be affected by people's judgements anymore, but its so hard, because sometimes the judgements are so hurting and things that I have never thought of. Sigh.

Goodluck for tests tomorrow!

Pin your wings down

2009-04-22T07:42:00.000-07:00

Today, history test which was quite alright for me, although I feel that the time given wasn't enough. Tomorrow's Geog test, and I am not prepared at all. I can vaguely memorise chapter 8, but I think I'm quite confident for chapter 7. Shall memorise the rest in english class tomorrow. After school was Tampines One with Fiona, and then met Charlene, Mondre and Liyeng for lunch. It was fun, I guess! After that, went home and attempted to study, and I fell asleep in the end. I am really lacking sleep nowadays but exams are 11 days away and I need to hxc study now. Shall stay over at the airport on friday to study provided my mom lets, otherwise its home study with Macs meal as my buddy. Anyways, I found out some stuff today which left me thinking alot.. I guess I really got to put those thoughts aside first and focus on the mid year exams first. I hope I can maintain all my marks and improve on my chinese and maths. Time is running out.

I'm slipping off the edge

2009-04-21T00:14:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling so so soooo emo now, Idk why. Theres just so many thoughts running through my head, I've got no one to turn to for fear of being judged. I hope this feeling goes away soon because I'm feeling so uneasy..

Tomorrow's the history test, goodluck to everyone! I'll read through the notes given by the teacher later, and remember the method for reliabilty.

xx

Tag replies :

Passerby : haha quite sweet, but still nice! Is the green tea nice? Never tried before!! :/
Carmen : Yah :( sian!!
Fiona : I can't wait too! Sigh I miss you so much, seeyou soon! <3

2009-04-20T01:20:00.000-07:00

Dee! Get well soon, our baby! :)
Haha, the guys (namely Syafiq, Alfy and Abby) influenced me into wearing the latex gloves and we started slapping each other. HAHA.
Come back to school soon, deedee! We love you :)

Tag replies :

Debbie : I'm going to miss you! :(
Sharul, Xiuyun, QQ, Zul, Carmen, Cindy, Jo, Liyi : Hashbrown :( Nvm Hopefully she'll have a better life in heaven!!
Xiuyun : Super nice!!!
Felicia : Hello felicia! Thanks dear, yup! Although its our one and only syf, I think we did well, maybe the judges expectations that day were high cos probably before that there were better choirs.. Anyways congrats for being our SL! :)
Passerby : Hehe yes!! Esp. Macs one :)

asdfgh

2009-04-18T13:07:00.000-07:00

Its 4 in the morning, I am craving for Macs breakfast right now cos Im tired from studying, but I just ate Mcwings + Fries + Ice lemon tea 3 hours ago :/

I am such a pig.

Like you and I they must have some temper

2009-04-17T11:17:00.000-07:00

Today is a sad, sad saddddd day :( I miss Hashbrown so much although it has only been 10 days with her (I am a failure at keeping pets) :((((((

Anyways, the plan was to spend fridaynight at the airport studying, but last minute all cannot, so I went to eastpoint bk to study. I think studying alone is more productive cos no one is there to distract you. Stayed till 11 ish when Eastpoint was closing, and thankfully kwj was there to accompany me. Its now 2 + in the morning, and I'm planning to stay up till 4ish to study. Hope I can cover geog and do the remaining maths hw! Tomorrow I shall study some bio after visting Dee, hope shes better :(

Okay, 1 and a half morehours to go, go me!

edit/
I realised that I have not blogged about the choir, yes we got a Silver, although it wasn't what we all expected (gold), I think we really did very very well. I was close to tears after the performance cos I was really happy with the sudden improvement, and everyone swayed and smiled! :) Although I was abit disheartened after seeing CCHSM's performace esp for Kasa (which I want to sing after the 1month break!) Sadly this is our last syf performance for the sec 3s :( But whatever it is, I guess the whole of choir feels that we deserved a gold!

2009-04-16T22:46:00.000-07:00

Re: 10th April post,

"It occurs to me how close happiness and sadness are. So closely knitted together. Such a thin line, a thread-like divide that in the midst of emotions, it trembles, blurring the territory of exact opposites. The movement is minute, like a thin thread of a spider's web that quivers under a raindrop."

I can't agree more.

Few hours ago, was so happy because the choir perfomed well, then when I came back, I found Hasbrown dead. No this is not a joke, I am freaking shit serious :(

Sorry Hashbrown, I guess I couldn't give you the life a bunny like you should have, hope you'll find peace in pet heaven, where theres no pain on your leg. Idk how/why you died, but I'm sure all that you've suffered has come to an end, although I spent like super little days with you, I'm going to miss you and your greedy self eating like 24/7 and doing random things. I'll miss feeding you cos you're so cute that way. Love you always, xx

If you don't stop running you can never breathe

2009-04-14T05:39:00.000-07:00

SYF's in 2days, and yes I am feeling nervous. We'll just have to pray hard that the choir has like a ~sudden improvement~ for tomorrow's practice..

I'm feeling so sian-ed, and all I want to do now is complete my hw and then lie in bed and sleep because I'm feeling so down. But I will be strong and face the storm anyway because setbacks help us grow and prepare us for the future.

Sihui : Thank you :)
Xiuyun : haha said already! :D i guess shes much better already, and she cant stop eating!! (gained alot of weight lol!)
Fitri : Haha :) nope no one did!
Fiona : Thanks best <3 You cheer up too k? Shopping this/next week!
Passerby : Thanks whoever you are <3
Qianjing : Lol! "Hi." HAHA

The Fear

2009-04-13T05:43:00.000-07:00

I'm sure there are days where people feel unimportant, unwanted. But somehow, these feelings just keep reccuring for me, and the emotions it triggers is really screwing me up. I hope this feeling goes away soon..

Yes, I miss the old me. The carefree, "I don't care if you judge me" old self. Seems like I was happier then, and where I would embrace the new day with a smile plastered on my face despite whatever setbacks I know I will have to face. But now, change is the only constant, and be it good or bad, all I want is my friends to stand beside me to go through this storm together, help me overcome whatever, pinpoint my bad points and improve from there. I need a reason, not just a simple, "You've changed, and no its not for the better." Because without a reason, it simply hurts. It just seems as if they have given up on me already. There is so much more I want to just let go, but I just cant seem to..

Wish me luck for tomorrow's test!

2009-04-10T08:33:00.000-07:00

"It occurs to mehow close happiness and sadness are. So closely knitted together. Such a thin line, a thread-like divide that in the midst of emotions, it trembles, blurring the territory of exact opposites. The movement is minute, like a thin thread of a spider's web that quivers under a raindrop."

Hashbrown!

2009-04-09T03:25:00.000-07:00

(Happy Birthday in advance to Alfy (a Fly) and Ian!! :D )

Hi! My birthday just passed, and it was a very enjoyable birthday :)

Firstly, 12am on 7th april kwj ask me go out of my house, then when I went out he was standing there was a slice of cake :D I cried omg! Haha thanks :)

Secondly, after reaching school + after assembly, Cindy dragged me out and blindfolded me, then everyone outside started screaming, then they put my hand inside this box. Felt grass. Then they moved my hand over and touched this furry furry thing that was moving. Opened my eyes and saw a bunny!!! OMG. Then they all started singing happy birthday song :) So so soooo touched!! The bunny's called Hashbrown and I will post pictures up soon! (Apparently her leg has an infection, so Im bringing her to the vet later! :( )

School was alright for the whole day as well :) Thanks to everyone that gave me presents, cards, sent me messages and wished me happy birthday in school. <3!

Yesterday, spent my day with the girls and the mats at t3! Had lunch, then went to slack and stuff. HAHA. Then, after that went to kwj house for dinner, and home.

Pictures up once Hashbrown comes back from the vet!
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Rachel : HAHAHA.
Joan : <3!
Xiuyun : Thanks dear! :)
Qianjing : THANK YOU <3
Chery.T : Thank you!! <3
Steph : HEARTIFIED. Yah sia fate!! Lovers 4 lyfe.

The shock of the lightning

2009-04-04T22:57:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone, I'm feeling so much better already. :)
Thanks Joan for your message, and thanks to those who tagged, QQ, Sharul, Shuqi, Fitri and Anony :)

Tonight I hope I'll be able to enjoy myself tonight during the Oasis concer with Ryan Lim!

Bye everyone, enjoy yourselves today!

2009-04-03T09:41:00.001-07:00

I've never felt worst.

Trying to hold on

2009-04-02T03:30:00.000-07:00

(Credits : ljsecret.livejournal)

Everytime I see this picture, my thoughts on the above just dies off. It has been my little bit of hope from a total stranger, and I really thank him/her for posting it. But somehow... the more Im feeling that unknown feeling, a mix of sadness and whatever, I'm losing grip of that hope already.. I want my happiness back, before I do anything (silly) beyond my control :(

Girl Anachronism

2009-04-01T09:05:00.000-07:00

Past few days have been fine.
Recently, I have absolutely no mood to study, something is wrong with me!!
After next week, I will start to put in my 101%!
So many people's birthdays are coming alr!
My parents want me to have a party (??!) But I don't really have the mood for one.. =/ Probably will ask some old classmates out to celebrate!

I am so tired now.
Goodnight everyone! :)

Prophecies in Kodak

2009-03-29T07:37:00.000-07:00

Yesterday gave choir a miss in the morning due to my voice :/ So I'm excused from school tmr although I'm still going, and excused from choir for a week, although I'm still going. Leaving class earlier tmr for some rehearsal. Had lunch at 4ish with mom, then met Kwj in the evening. Watched Mall Cop and I seriously think its funny but then idk why its not funny to him? K nvm, had dinner at 85, then home.

Today, met Cheryl for shopping and lunch at parkway. Miss her so much and glad that we were able to catch up with each others life! Shallots, (inside joke) cheer up ok!! Life is never fair. Afterward, went over to her house for awhile, then left for Kenneth;s tuition. It was quite productive for me, I guess? And then went home for chinese tuition, which is a waste of time since I didn't absorb a shit. :/

For some reason, I am kind of anticipating my birthday? I do hope that turning 15 can make 2009 a smoother journey for me. Brother's staying in Paris for studies from June-July, which means I might have to take a flight back myself to Sgp, while my parents spend 2 weeks with him there. Nice.

Okay I think I am talking alot of nonsense now.

Need to get myself back on track and not get so damn freaking sad all the time. Hard as it sounds, I will try. Although, there isnt much change yet. :(

Tag replies :

Stepho - IMY you too dear, hope things are better for you, always here for you, love you ._.!!!
Dhrue - Thanks dhrue :)
Rachel - Haha I should try it out soonly!
Xiuyun - The feeling is so weird right!
Sharul - Haha hi!! How you find one!
Carolyn Tung. - Hello :)
Cheryl T. - Hi Shallots! Yess lets go out more often <3

And now that it's gone, it's like it wasn't there at all

2009-03-27T08:54:00.000-07:00

The past few days have been alright, although I'm not really in the mood to study yet :/
Today was dress down day and Celestine's birthday, and it was sweltering hot for the whole day. After school, went to Parkway with Cindy, Jane and QQ! Chilled till 5ish then went home. Slept till 7 plus then went over to ECP to meet Charmaine, Bryan and Sharul. Chilled and stuff, then went back at arnd 9!

Tomorrow's going to be tiring I guess, choir at 8am! Nice.

I feel that life's moving too fast for me already, I need a proper break, to just stay at home unwind, or just walk around by myself. I guess its been awhile since I've had some "me" time already. Thanks everyone for trying to cheer me up on tb again, I'm trying but it seems so difficult :(

Life's been so fcked up now, and I'm starting to get used to loneliness. Like what Steph said, sometimes all you need is that little bit of hope, encouragement for you to make it through, but it seems like they have given up already. Strange as it seems, I think I am already getting used to this very odd feeling, its so complicated that I can't even describe it myself. No one seems to understand how I'm feeling, and I am just bottling things up, to a point where I'm used to keeping things to myself. I can't seem to share how I feel and feel better, but I will be strong, I will face this storm and wipe the tears off my face. I'm not hoping for the best things life can offer, I just want to feel happiness genuinely, because I've never had that feeling for the longest time.

2009-03-24T06:43:00.000-07:00

As soon as I thought life was getting better, I just keep getting pulled back down. I do hope in the month of April, things will pick up. I've had enough of crying, self-multilation and whatnots. These aren't cries of attention, but rather a way of letting out all my sadness. I may not be the best at expressing myself, sharing my problems, but I'm trying. Its just madness that sometimes, you give people the advice they've needed for the longest time, but somehow, when you use that advice as well, it doesn't seem to work. School, family, friends and just about everything in my life is causing me stress and sadness. I want a change for the better. No more unhappiness in my life. I pray for the better, I really do. :'(

You are made of sugar, milk and molasses

2009-03-22T23:22:00.000-07:00

K founders' day was alright, and afterward we went to chill at Macs and under some block.

Today was spent sleeping, out with wj and eating alot.

K, going to eat dinner now, what a greedy person la omg!!1

Anyways, people! Please cheer up and dont sian all the time. Cos life's too short to be sian! I am trying to be more optimistic but it is not really working bur nvm!! one step at a time :)

alright, im getting very hungry now, bye everyone!! :)

Lost

2009-03-21T09:31:00.000-07:00

Chalet was yesterday, and it wasn't fantastic, cos so many people couldn't make it (e.g cindy, qq, abby, etc!) :(

Did alot of nonsense, and played late night ddr till my blisters came out again, and after checking out of the chalet, did more ddr and now I am limping. Well done. Went to the beach at idk what time in the morning and played thumb game in the middle of nowhere with thunder in the background and getting sea water in my eyes. Gave choir a miss (!) cos I was too tired and my voice sounds like a man now. Hope my throat/flu gets better by monday! Also, qq, get well soon!! :)

I feel so sad again, I shouldn't and should just appreciate what I have already.

Soul meets body

2009-03-19T08:53:00.000-07:00

Am back from 15 hours in school.

Spent time with 3r4 folding paper stars (9191), end product of big smiles on our faces + bruised fingers. Happy that I managed to bond with the class people today! :)

Killed time by roaming around, running away from Mas selamat and other teachers, hiding in the hall and painting Abby's nails (against his own will) HAHA.

Supper with Charlene, Eric, Fiona, Marcus, Rachel and Shuqi at macs, then home!

Tmr's the chalet, let me know if any of u want to go via msn or text message!!

Ciao!

Drop the phone

2009-03-17T09:45:00.000-07:00

Yesterday :

Alvin's birthday :)

Went after tuition and played guitar hero. Then, Alvin, Charlene, Gabriel and Qj and I went to buy cake at PP. At the same time, went shopping and went to play ddr at the beach. Went back to Alvin's place and chilled and cut cake! Then slacked and gossipped hahaha then went to Eastpoint to meet Kwj for dinner and home!

Today:

Met Fiona at Bedok, then went to Cityhall to shop and slack. After that, went to Ecp to meet people, and then played ddr again LOL and then ate dinner and went home!

Tomorrow :

Choir at 8.30-1pm, then tuition at 3.30!

bye everyone!

I need you so much closer

2009-03-15T08:22:00.000-07:00

- Liverpool 4-1 HAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHA \m/

- Spent my day with Abby, Alfy, Anderson, Carmen, Kaixin and Oon Ngeh yesterday. Haji for shisha and Bugis to walk arnd, saw alot of people, haha.

- Today, orginal plan was to study, but in the end everyone couldn't make it. Spent my afternoon with Kwj studying. Managed to do finish geog and chapter 5 of math alr!

- Tomorrow, Alvin's birthday party.

- Chalet is coming up soon, and I want to go shopping!!!!

I eat alot.

(Hi Jane, see this post is not emo!)

Bye everyone!

3.14

2009-03-13T22:47:00.000-07:00

Happy Pi (π) Day, everyone!! (3/14)

Haha ok its like some geeky thing but, everyone should go out and have some pie today :)
Choir auditions, managed to pass. Survived choir despite migraine. Lunch with choir people, home.
Meeting Abby and all for some shisha now, ciao!

P.S TONIGHT LIVERPOOL HUAT AHHHH 8.45PM GOGO

P.P.S Thanks everyone for trying to cheer up me via tb, loves!

2009-03-12T03:34:00.000-07:00

:'(

I can't keep up..

2009-03-11T07:26:00.000-07:00

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

I couldn't help it, and it was the only way to release my sadness. As cliche as it sounds, it helped me. I'm sorry for disappointing you guys. I need help.. I need someone.. )':

2009-03-10T06:47:00.000-07:00

"More often than not, the easy decisions are the wrong decisions, and sometimes we feel like we're going backwards when we're actually moving forward."

This is very, very true.

Geography test was today, and I guess I really got to work on my time management.. Hands were aching so much after the test that it couldn't stop twitching. Choir was tiring, and can someone tell me if there is practice on Saturday during the March Holidays (21st) ?

Sigh, feeling the same as before again. This isn't good ): I am really anticipating the holidays for now, it can probably help me rid some stress and help me be happier before school reopens. Seriously feel like I have no one already, horrible feeling. Am trying my best to be a more optimistic person, but it seems almost impossible for me. Shall clear my mind and do something so as to occupy myself and keep me away from unwanted, negative thoughts.

Anyways, to all sad people please cheer up, cos life's too short to be sad all the time, smile. :)
(apparently not working for me..)

Lost.

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

2009-03-09T07:15:00.000-07:00

I'm extremely stressed about geog test tomorrow, can't absorb much except for the earthquake part! Need to spent the next 2 hours trying to memorise chapter 6!! Go me! And I realised, even if I pass this test, I doubt I'll be able to get a distinction for geog ): This is so saddening. Ok ytd I baked! haha after so long.. relieves stress..

You're the reason why I stopped myself from.. Thank you <3